lets talk bout love

well hello.. have you missed me? really? I Missed you too. It has been to long my friends. SO I told Miss Krista Insley that I was going to try and write every single day. First let me say I am so grateful for all those of you who have been asking me to write more. thank you. The past few weeks have been amazing.(there is more to the story but that is a whole other blog)I am so honored humbled grateful and even a bit shocked at all the encouragement and love I have been recieving. Life is a complicated and sometimes rough lonely journey and to know others are there with you is amazing. which brings me to love. What is love anyways? well sometimes I think love is stupid to be honest. There are those you love who DO NOT deserve it and you dont know why. There are those who love you and You Do Not deerve it or want it. When I see couples is that puppy love stage i feel a little nauseated. Love is complex and yet so simple and pure. Its both conditional and unconditional. Love the reason peoplea are born and yet the reason some die. Think of all those teens who have babies because she wants someone to love,or those people who commit suicide because they dont feel love.It is the one thing we are all searching for. Love the one thing we all want even when we are running away from. Love or lack there of the reason why so many of us torture ourselves and feel unworthy. How many people will you run into today who feel unloved and yet it is masked by a smile? I have found that when you are lost or insecure misguided or at your breaking somehow love is always there just when you need it. We all have someone we love and well if you dont that is not good thing...but it is not enough to love someone. What good does it do and who cares if you love someone and they never know? Life is short and precious. Im watching the funeral of an officer that was slain, and im sure his family wishes he was here to tell him the love him one more time. It is not enough to love someone you need to show them. Im not just talking your husband, mom or dad. Im not just talking agape love but love for all of humanity. You need to care and you need to show it. Dont be afraid to take a chance and tell people how you really and dont be afraid to show it. Most of all you need to love yourself. You need to take the time to show yourself how much you care. I know those of you who are not religious may not want to hear this but the best thing about Love is the Father's love. When you feel no one loves you Jesus does. His love is beyond pure and perfect and it was and will always be beyond everlasting. His arms and His love is a place you can embrace with no guilt no shame no guilt. Love is all around you, even when you cant see it. Keep yours and your heart open and you will find it.