so.. and for those who are going to ask who is she talking about? or think they know because my mom has a big mouth and likes to exaggerate it doesn't really matter who it is. So there was a boy. (isn't there always?) again who it is is irrelevant. You will never get me to admit this but i may have started to let my guard down. Imagine the shock when i realized i got burned. (perhaps due to karmic and the fact that i have done an awful lot of heart breaking and reckless dating over the years) this all makes things very complicated. i am totally torn because now there are other people involved that may end up being hurt. so.. i came up with sort of my own list of wants along with some realizations. The first thing i realized was girls are shady. Yep. shocker i know. Let me just say though i am not not blaming the guy for being a jerk, I'm just saying girls get real funny. You would think i would remember that after an awesome 2008 (you cant see me rolling my eyes). Girls will totally go after a guy that they know another girl likes. even when they are friends with the girl. Whether it is to prove that they are hotter, better kissers, or just to be a bitch why would you treat someone like that? the worst part is we openly flaunt it. why must be so threatened when we are not the center of attention. Further more as a rule girls that do this kind of thing are not the most attractive people (either inside or out). when are we going to as women and sisters raise each other up? I'm just saying. now some will say I'm sure.. well this person was drunk, or we were high etc. etc. etc.. to be honest i don't care. I have been drunk plenty of times and not gone out of my way to hurt people. maybe that makes me strange. also, sometimes the girls that seem the nicest are the ones quick to attack. second thing i realize is that i am worth more then the drama. enough said. all this has made me come up with list of things i want. while i can recognize that people make mistakes and aren't perfect there are certain things that should be non negotiable when it comes to relationships. so here is my list:
1. I want to be respected all aspects.
2. I want to be appreciated and valued.
3. I dont want to be the one filling a void. whether that be because you are lonely, because you dont know anyone else in the area, because you are suffering from a break up whatever the reason. no thanks.
4. I do not want to be just another number on your belt. arrogance is never an attractive quality.
5. I dont want someone who is hanging out with me out of spite. Whether that is to spite your sister, your mama, your neighbor, your former girlfriend, your ex-wife or your 5th grade crush, etc. count me out.
6. I want something real.
7. I want someone who can make me laugh verse crying all the time.
8. I want someone who will love me for me. both the inside and out.
now for those of you who are going to say.. she must be looking now, or that it will happen sometime i never said i was looking, im just saying in relationships in general there are certain things none of us should comprise. that's my list what's yours?
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