time for a change

There is a woman who by all accounts to put it mildly is a horrible person. If you know her and disagree then well you dont really know her. While I consider myself to be a rather forgiving person, this person continues to wreak havoc. There are some people in this world whether anyone likes it or not that are intent on being destructive. Destructive to themselves, to others or to whom ever. reckless and hardly law abiding. In an ironic twist of fate the people who are of this caliber seem to have manage to have children. go figure (God and I have this conversation repeatedly and I will not ever see the reasoning or logic behind it.) This woman has said and done some awful things. She has told open lies about me, my sister, my family, she has made everyone in her path miserable. The saddest thing is though that she has daughters. Now if you think your actions dont affect your children these girls were acting out like nobody's business. the pain of abandonment, of abuse and years of feeling worthless can take its toll on anyone. It is especially heart breaking when a 12 yearold is now going to be without a mom when she needs one the most. all for selfishness. it always amazes me how one person can cause so many other people and their relationships discontent. Now one can choose to be angry. Believe me I am, enraged as a matter of fact. rightfully so, there is no doubt about it. yet there is another route. Yes, I can choose to be angry and hurt but then that is giving this person exactly what they want. Power, attention, and control. At some point I have to say I am done relishing in the heartache this person has caused. At some point one has to say you are NOT the controller of my state of being. It is often said the best revenge in life is to be successful, and better. How do change the world? it isnt by anger hostility or manipulation. It is by goodness, kindness, love and gentleness. We can change the world by raising our selves up so we can be better examples for our sisters. Abuse runs in cycles and perhaps today is the day to make a clean break and say I will do better for my family and myself. Finally, here is a peace of what i wrote to that lonely 12 year old. You are the most beautiful girl in the world. You are good, special, kind, and talented. Do not let anyone take that away from you. You are more than just a victim of circumstance.when you are alone, feel awkward or uncertain, look to the stars and know that there are so many people who love you are watching out for you even when you cant see them those 10,000 angels are around.