just a response to my own blog.

so i got an email from a NAFA member. for those of you who dont know NAFA is the national association for Fat Acceptance. my friend who is a member emailed me and asked why I was fat bashing. Someone else asked why I was bashing Gastric Bypass. Really people??? I am not bashing either. I am not saying it is or isnt ok to be fat, nor am I saying it is or isnt ok to lose weight, I am not saying I do or dont need to lose weight, I probably do. All I am saying is my happiness comes from the inside and it is or isnt dependant on you, or how I look. The fact that I love myself will not change regardless of whether or not I am fat, thin, grow warts on my forehead or end up with purple hair, or no hair because beauty to me doesnt define character and I know that is hard for some to swallow. And for the person that asked why I was acting like it didnt hurt the way people treat me. Of course it does. I am a girl and a sensitive one at that. So.. when you start to like a guy and he rejects you or you think people are you friends and they ignore or disregard you of course it hurts. I am not saying N didnt hurt me, and as far as P, S, J, J, J, K, and A go. I have been trying to get them to like me for years and I always get ignored, pushed aside or felt like I was the ugly one in the group, or that i wasnt good enough. being stood up, and ignored hurts. feeling like youre not as cool or pretty enough does hurt and I am a super sensitive person and to feel like you are putting effort into people who arent interested in you really sucks. So then i decided I am done crying tears over these people, I am done trying to sell myself to these people, I am listening to people tell me I am not pretty enough or skinny enough to be a part of the "in crowd" or one of the "hot girls" who hit up downtown. Eleanor Roosevelt once said" No one can make you feel inferior with out your consent". I am not bashing anyone or anything, nor I am denying that I have been hurt by people. All I am saying is I have one life, this is it, and well I am choosing to live a life of positivity and surrounding myself with people who love me. even if I am uncool, at least I know I am loved.