just keep going

So i am going to be discreet and direct as I can. Let me just say that this is directed at me, and those few others who share a commonality. There are some of us who are dealing with a unique issue. It is an issue that is complicated and carries a lot of potential stereotypes and social, cultural, and personal implications. I guarantee each of you knows someone who is directly struggling. The things is you can have an a hold on something for years and then in a blink of an eye you are back where you started. You are not immune to your sword. no one is. ( and yes we all have them and if you think you dont denial is a huge sword for many people and some have more visible issues then others and I am way way way more candid than most) You are only Its not something easily likes to admit and well as with so many things it comes with a lot of judgements and misconceptions. I also think that ( and if you know me certainly in my case) we tend to be harder on ourselves than even our worst critics. perfectionism has long been a huge sword in my side. Ok.. heres where I am going: There are some things, many things I suppose that we all struggle with every single day. Some of those things are not a choice to avoid. Sometimes you may make a mistake or a misstep or regress whatever label you want to put on it. Sometimes we get caught up in the negative drama and people who make us feel unworthy even when they dont mean too. Sometimes we are rejected or over analyze the situation. whatever the reason why doesnt matter. Yet one thing I have learned is that we are not perfect and to struggle is a test of perseverance and character. without struggle there would be no need for hope or compassion. So.. from today on no tears.. no guilt.. no embarrassment..no shame.. no continued self sabotage. yesterday was in the past tomorrow is in the future and sometimes its important to acknowledge victories no matter how small in the moment. So dust yourself and as someone I admire once said "just keep going". Also, do not let other people shame you in to sabotage. Your worth and your accomplishments is not dictated with someone elses expectations. Another thing, do not be afraid to ask for help and encouragement and if people dont understand it is often due to their own insecurities and fears and lack of knowledge. There are more people willing to help than you may realize. As for me it's time to reconnect with the team. Someone once said we all have 50,000 coaches. I like to think that its 50,000 angels. point is look around and love is there. health and wellness isnt about perfection it is about doing the best you can asking for help and moving forward. love you.