take a good look boys and girls

So.. im so mad and well its time to clear the air. Last nite again I got into a conversation with several people about who I am. There are people who see me just as a party girl. I have had people say that you and I cant go on vacation or we dont have anything in common because you like to party. There are people who take a look at me and say wow she must be lazy, or smell, or just be a glutton. There are people who hear about my goals and have said: "wow she must be stuck up think she is smarter than everyone else."
OK so please look through my pictures look at me stand next to me strain your eyes..whatever you need to do. You may think I am mad at you..nope I am just mad as women that we still feel the need to judge others.. (ok and some men too). This isnt just a pretty girl syndrome where I am whining because a lot of girls dont like me its the truth. Now you and I know that girls who spend all their time judging 0thers or putting people down really have a problem with their own self esteem and are super insecure. Jealousy is a hard thing to deal with, and ive noticed as I go on this journey it only seems to get worse. I just dont get it because I never judge people based on looks, or what they did one night in 2002 because looks are deceiving and call me crazy but i appreciate the content of one's character and enjoying observing the whole package. and honestly,I hope as women some day we can get to a point where we decide to raise each other up rather tear each other down. It is just annoying that we cant be happy for each other.. yet i know internal happiness is hard to find. BTW trust me I can you when you make those looks and roll your eyes..when you post things on fb, or talk about me to my friends I do know..again thank you.
So.. to all those haters I really say thank you for spending your precious time talking about me. I appreciate it. Also, thank you for reminding me of how happy I am and how good I feel about myself.
So.. yep I like parties, I go out I like to have a good time. drinks here and there and party favors can be a good time. Yep, im fat..and I know its hard to believe people actually right now and not when I lose 50 pounds. Can we move on now? Yep, I am taking a non traditional path to work my self through grad school. None of this means, that I am whore a bitch, or a slut. No i did not cheat my way towards my goals.
There is also a side many people wont have the chance to see. Yep, i like to party but I also like reading. I like scrabble, I like writing, I like volunteering, i like swimming. I enjoy my time at home. All of it this is me. Honestly, it doesnt matter to me if you like it or not because plenty of people do and well its my life, my journey, my path not yours. I know that I am fabulous, funny, driven,and amazing and i hope someday you can find all that makes you great. Im just going to keep being me and who I am. I make no apologies for the person I have become.